Tuesday, November 13, 2007

First Post

Where to start? I have had a lot going on in my life the past couple of months. Things that probably will bore most but have been life changing for me. I had decided to go back to work: for several reasons. So my almost 2 year old son could have more interaction with children his age, so I could have more interaction with people MY age, and to contribute finacially to the family unit, as some of those reasons. Little did I know how hard it would be to go from being stay at home mom to a working mom. WHEW! How do people do it? I feel like I am one of those who have it together for the most part but what a challenge. Sickness for me and Gavin plus seperating anxiety (I think he had it too ;-) plus just knowing that I am not able to give 100% at any area in my life made me realize I had made a mistake. The Bible says we are to work for our employer as though you are working for Jesus, and though I have I still feel I am not able to give fully to that duty and still be the best wife and mother I need to be. I am so blessed to have a husband that can provide enough for us to allow me to stay home and raise Gavin and I realize now how selfish I am being if I don't. When we financially needed my help that was a different story.
I have missed my life so much, even though it has only been 5-6 weeks it feels like forever. And he will only be little forever. I know any reading this is probably bored to death, but my life has been nothing but a fog for the past few weeks and to finally have made a decision after many prayerful days and nights is such a relief! I hope one day I can do something that can be helpful to other mothers who are not as fortunate as I am.