Getting Well

Ok-time to get blogging since I seem to be the only one NOT doing it!

I just had my surgery last Wednesday for my deviated septum etc. and I have to say it has been one of the WORST recoveries I could have ever imagined. Yesterday was by far the worst day and if Kris had not taken off of work and been able to be here to take care of Gavin I have no idea how I would have made it. The worst part has been the headaches. I can't take the pain medicine because it makes me sick so I just have to ride it out. Not easy when you have a migraine! And it has been hard to not get to play with Gavin and "love" on him like I am use to. I HATE that part! Thankfully I get the splints out tomorrow so maybe that will make a marked improvement. I just hope that is not as painful as having the packing taken out was!

Enough about that!

Tomorrow is eventful for another reason: it is Gavin's first day of preschool and mama is getting nervous! I know he is ready but I know there will still be little melt down moments! (for him too). Thankfully his friend Jake from church is in his class so I think that will help a lot. I am excited for him to have something to look forward too though. He asks to go to Dani's school almost everyday so now he will have his own school to go to. We even made his own special calendar so he would know what to look forward to each day and what he would be learning. He wants to go NOW!!

First Post

Where to start? I have had a lot going on in my life the past couple of months. Things that probably will bore most but have been life changing for me. I had decided to go back to work: for several reasons. So my almost 2 year old son could have more interaction with children his age, so I could have more interaction with people MY age, and to contribute finacially to the family unit, as some of those reasons. Little did I know how hard it would be to go from being stay at home mom to a working mom. WHEW! How do people do it? I feel like I am one of those who have it together for the most part but what a challenge. Sickness for me and Gavin plus seperating anxiety (I think he had it too ;-) plus just knowing that I am not able to give 100% at any area in my life made me realize I had made a mistake. The Bible says we are to work for our employer as though you are working for Jesus, and though I have I still feel I am not able to give fully to that duty and still be the best wife and mother I need to be. I am so blessed to have a husband that can provide enough for us to allow me to stay home and raise Gavin and I realize now how selfish I am being if I don't. When we financially needed my help that was a different story.
I have missed my life so much, even though it has only been 5-6 weeks it feels like forever. And he will only be little forever. I know any reading this is probably bored to death, but my life has been nothing but a fog for the past few weeks and to finally have made a decision after many prayerful days and nights is such a relief! I hope one day I can do something that can be helpful to other mothers who are not as fortunate as I am.